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Can't Sleep
Ok I am on a record for myself its been 5 nights and I am not sleeping at all. When I do sleep I be having the worst dreams. On July 3rd my father died from lung cancer. I am really upset that he is gone but I am really mad also. Before he died my family found out he was back on drugs and had been for months so I stopped speaking to him. The last really conversations we had were fights. I feel guilty about the fights, angry about the drugs, pissed off at myself for being angry when my father is dead and sad because my father is gone. Therefore I can't sleep because I am to busy thinking all the damn time. I haven't written on here in forever but I just wanted to lay it out there and there it is.
July 14 2005, 17:50:04 UTC 6 years ago
don't feel guilty about the way things ended with your father...families fight because they love each other. have you ever fought with someone you didn't care about?
to help close your feelings, why don't you write your dad a letter. say everything you would want to say to him. and perhaps talk to a counselor...not all psychiatrists are for giving prescriptions..sometimes it just helps to talk to someone who will listen.
best advice..write the letter and avoid using drugs to help you sleep. that will only cause things to worsen.
take care.